Law of Attraction

I truly believe in the Law of Attraction. I have experienced. I have to admit, though, that when I get in a funk, even though I understand the Law, I just can't get myself thinking right and know that I'm not sending out good vibes. Today I woke up in one of those funks. I've been like that a lot lately. Then on Facebook I saw that Michele had posted the picture below. I had also seen this quote on Facebook a few days ago. All of a sudden I thought, "OK, what if I turned my thinking around and assumed that everything was going to go my way instead of against me. What if I assumed the best instead of the worse?"  It felt weird but I tried to think that way. Later that morning I got a nice email from a friend that I thought had shut me out of their life and that I may never hear from again. That turned around my thinking even more. Maybe all was not lost. Maybe everything I assumed they were doing against me wasn't even real.  I have also felt down about travel opportunities that seem to be falling through. I love to travel and have trips to look forward to. Last night Dwight and I had been talking about how fun it would be to go visit our niece in San Antonio. Today, he called me from Wisconsin and said that we should start planning the trip because he gave up his seat on the plane today for a later flight and got a $500 voucher!

Connected by Satellite

A funny little coincidence to share today . .  I was driving home from work and listening to Sirius Satellite radio. I haven't listened to the 80's channel in a long time so I turned to that. A song was playing, "Punk Rock Girl" by the Dead Milkmen. I vaguely remember the song but stopped to listen to it because I used to like that group. Later when I got home I saw the Facebook status of a friend I used to work with (that now lives in Colorado), "Big smile on my face - just heard "Punk Rock Girl" by the Dead Milkmen on the radio today."  I haven't heard of that song in a long, long time and then twice in one night. I commented back to her that I had heard it too, on Sirius radio. She said that's where she heard it, too. So, we were connected across the miles by a song on satellite radio. Technology is everyday magic!

Punk Rock Girl

Portal to Heaven

I went out running on a cold winter's day a few days ago. I don't think I've ever run when it was this cold and it took a lot of motivation to get myself to do it. This is what I was rewarded with.  Portal to heaven.

Spirit Guides

I haven't thought about having a spirit guide in a long time. But the other night, I think I might've called to one in my sleep (isn't that when these things happen?!)  Anyhow, here's the story:  The other night I had a bunch of weird dreams that I remembered in a lot of detail.  One of the dreams really wasn't much of a dream. I just heard someone shouting "Ollie!  Help! I'm listening!" in a desperate tone.  I woke up almost shaking because I felt like I had really heard someone yelling this. Then I realized it was my voice yelling it. Since no one woke up I assumed that I didn't really yell. I kind of forgot about it until the next day. Driving from work to ESL class I remembered it. Then, for some reason, I had this message that I was calling to my spirit guide in this dream.  I thought more about having a spirit guide. The problem was that I don't like the name "Ollie" for a spirit guide. It reminds me of Laurel and Hardy or a short round guy eating hamburgers! Not very exotic. So I thought, maybe it is really spelled "Alli" or "Ali."  But, no, I kept seeing the word "Ollie" in my mind. So I accepted it.  A little further down the road I remembered that Sonny's name given to him at the Human Society was Ollie!  And, Buckeye's name given to her by the rescue group that had her was "Polly!"  So, in a way, maybe those two animals were connected to my spirit guide?!  After class, I was driving home still thinking about all of this. I hadn't thought about having a spirit guide for a long time. I was trying to figure out if I believed in all of this. I was also thinking how nice it would be to have someone to talk to, to guide me, to help me feel better, and to provide some direction when I need it.  All of a sudden, a car came out of nowhere and almost hit me. Then it sped away. I felt like maybe that was a sign. Ollie was trying to tell me that he/she is here and ready to talk if I'm listening. 

100 Days Revisited

When I said I was committing to 100 days of finding the magic again I guess I didn't mean 100 consecutive days! :)  I'm going to try for consecutive days but the point of this blog is to record the times of  synchronicity, coincidence, and just general "magickness!" These things don't happen every day. I am making a point every day of writing down three things I'm grateful for and I'm going to implement an idea I read about where you fill a jar with slips of paper that record good things that happened to you during the year. Then you take them out at the end of the year and read them. This blog is not about making myself find things to be grateful for or happy about. This is about recording those things that make me stop and say, "Wow!" So my commitment is going to be getting back to being open for this moments and for recording them here. Not many people know about this blog, I don't make it public. It's more for me. The only people I share it with are people I think would understand and "get it." If you are reading this, I hope you do!

Here's what it's all about:

Day 1 of 100 - ESL

I'm challenging myself to get back to this. I need to save myself and looking for the magic every day again just might be the answer. I'm going to commit to 100 days of sticking to this to see what happens. 

I teach English as a Second Language class every Wednesday. Usually at the end of the work day on Wednesdays I'm kind of dreading class that goes form 7 - 9. I'm just tired and want to go home. But every Wednesday at 9:00 I leave so happy and energized. Tonight was no exception. The people I teach with energize me, the students energize me, when they learn something it energizes, when they have more confidence it energizes me and when they call me "teacher" it really energizes me and makes me feel happy. When you feel this way after a long day at work you know you are "in the flow" as Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi calls it. This is pure magic - to connect with your inner purpose and to feel that energy ignite! Today and every Wednesday I experience this and know that for two hours every week I'm "on purpose!"

Innermost Being and Reality Uncovered

Magic today came my way as it often does via Facebook. Someone posted this quote by Joseph Campbell that really struck a chord with me - about how I am feeling these days.

"People say that what we’re all seeking is a meaning for life.... I think what we’re really seeking is an experience of being alive, so that our life experiences on the purely physical plane will have resonance within our innermost being and reality, so that we can actually feel the rapture of being alive."
-Joseph Campbell

When I read that quote this morning I had what Oprah calls an "Aha" moment. I realized that's why I love Spain so much. And, why I love to travel abroad so much. These are my realities - my life experiences that resonate with my inner being and reality! Maybe it's safe to say they are my inner passions. I think some people have these inner beings that are very strong and others don't. To have them so strongly is a blessing and a curse. The blessing is the "rapture" you feel when you live them. The curse is the strong longing, yearning, and discontentment you feel when you don't. It can be unbearable at times.

This quote really spoke to me today. I realized that that's what I'm looking for -- the experiences that resonant with my innermost being and reality. I'm trying to define that reality. Today, I saw some of that reality clearly for the first time. It's not that I'm crazy or ungrateful for the life I have -- it's me, who I am. It's my innermost being calling out to me. Now, how do I attract Spain and traveling abroad into my life this year? That's the magic I seek now.